Find your identity, Why fellowship with Jesus is relevant with your identity?

By spending time with Jesus, to know him and you will know yourself because you are created in his image. You were created to have his characters. When you don't spend time with him, you wander around, you would lose sight, lose direction in life and lose sense of yourself. You would feel lost, empty, broken and confuse about life if you don't spend time with Jesus. When you spend time with Jesus, you will learn from him, learn more about him. He will help build and mold your character into his likeness, so when people see you, they see Jesus. You carry Christ light and he is alive inside you. The power of Christ can transform and renew your soul and mind. Abide in Christ, fellowship with him everyday. For the creation shall spend time with the creator. 

2 Corinthians 4:16 

 we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.

2 Corinthians 5:17

Anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! Congratulation to your new life.

What is soul? Find the answer of who you are

The question 'Who am I' still remains one of the world's most asked questions. This question leads to more questions. 
What am I good at? What's my worth, what should I do with my life falls under the umbrella of a bigger question of 'who am I ?' 

The answer of 'who am I' = your identity = your soul, when you find your identity, you will find purpose of life. Your purpose of life gives you vision, passion and mission. Once you find them, you will have direction to go after, you are no longer lost and confuse like others, do not take for granted when you found the answer, promise to give your best and do what it takes to live it out.

What is soul? 

Soul is a person's inner being. The true and nature essence of who you are. 
In modern world, people are often busy improving and bettering their external, and material provision in life. People devoted themselves wholeheartedly to fulfill their external needs and wants. This mode of living distracts us from paying attention to our internal needs, the need to connect with our inner self, as I had said inner self is our soul. After long period of neglecting your soul, your malnourish and underdeveloped soul began to cry out for your attention, it sent signals to your mind and your heart with questions and feelings. Questions like 'why am I here on earth?' 'who I really am?' 'what's the purpose of my life?' 'Is there more in life or this is it?' You might feeling unfulfilled, unsatisfied with life, self and maybe relationship. Feeling empty, lost, confused about life. People begins to see the life that they are in is meaningless. 

If you have reach this point of life, start to look within yourself, discover who you are, the true and authentic self that you have overlook all these years. 
Your soul is hungry to reconnect with you and grow with you. Once you know your identity, you will know your purpose of life, then you can have a purpose driven life. Live the rest as your best. 

Your identity is not define by what other people say you are, not what your parents say, not what your friends, or what spouse say you are. You are not define by your life circumstances and what the world had label you. Also its not even who you say that you are because your thoughts and belief about yourself often influence by others or early experience of life. You are what the one who created you said you are.  

In Christ, you can find yourself. Don't give up life yet, When there's Jesus, there's hope. May Soul Home can be with you along the journey on self-discovery. Thanks for watching, God bless you and have a good day!

When Time Gets Rough... (on finding identity and finding purpose of life)

When time gets rough, remember the one who gave you the desire, gave you the idea, gave you the talents, gave you the gift. Whoever that gave you the gifts will support you in every way to sustain in whatever you had called to do. Jesus did not save you for nothing. He had saved you for a greater purpose of life, a greater destiny that you can ever imagine. His love is an everlasting love. For his plan for you had said in the Bible -  1 Corinthians 2:9 
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him."
Greater destiny comes within you, you have the greatness that lives inside you. Don't give up, keep on walking in what God has promised you. 
For those who want to find purpose of your life, Find time to discover who you are, what you good at and start put those skills to work, operate your gifts. First find some papers, ask yourself what you good at and write them down. Second, what you are passionate in, what you like, what you desire. Some people find it helpful and easier by asking what you cannot stand for, what you dislike, what you can't put up with, what changes you want to make and what group of people like to serve. Bishop T.D. jakes said 'if you couldn't stand a bad hairdo, you might want to be a hairstylist. A pastor from Hillsong shared that "there's once a boy told him he could not stand seeing women being hurt, so the pastor suggests the boy to consider occupations that could help women out of unfortunate situation. Next question, write down who you want to be, just write them down, don't think, don't judge, don't analyze even though you don't know how to become the one you want to be. God didn't put that desire in your heart for nothing. If you have a desire, dream it, and pursue it or just simply do it and test it out. By sitting on your chair, doing nothing won't bring you to a better place. 

Before you find your purpose, you might have to struggle a little bit to get a clear vision on what would be God's purpose for your life. As for my story, I have struggles and went so many different direction just to try what I really want for life. I worked many different jobs, I volunteered in many different area just to see what I like, what I don't like, and what I absolutely cannot put up with. I tried so many things, the process exhausted me as I am a sheep without shepherd, a lost sheep on her own try to seek and find purpose without divine guidance. It is just tiring and in complete lost. In Proverbs 29:18 "When people do not accept divine guidance, they run wild." 

Now when I look back the time that I had, the process of finding my purpose is actually a time God uses to build the characters and skills I need for the assignment and the destiny he planned for me. My company founded in April, 2014 this year. From working for my business, not only God continue to unfold the gifts and potentials that I'm not aware of, it also open my eyes and came to a point to appreciate all the job I had done during the time of lost, and see how it all came in handy when I needed to work for my business. The promotion work I did during winter having hands and feet became frozen, the marketing & advertising job that was supposedly only help me pay off airfare and money to spend when I back home visiting Hong Kong, the time I feel intimidated speak in front of public as a Master ceremony and do live interview with TV/radios as a volunteer Public Relation for an non-profit organization, the absolute boring, mundane administrative work, a job that I love but also I complain the most, the job that had burn me out by working long hours everyday, I often needs to sacrifice my weekend to work. But without this crazy demanding job, I will never be able to sacrifice my both the time and money to work long hours, sacrifice weekend, holiday, birthday celebration to work for my business and ministry while I am still in grad school. I praise God for everything I been through, both good and bad, because at the end they all work for me and not work against me. Genesis 50:20 "You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people." Romans 8:28 "And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." 

Take the opportunity to see things from a different perspective, a heavenly perspective, see things like how your heavenly father would see. Ask God what is it that you want me to learn from a time like this, that I am just feeling stuck? I know it's hard, during difficult time or time of lost, you mostly only feel bitterness and frustration, but how can it be possible for any positive feeling when our mind and hearts are fill with all the misery feelings. Ask God to help you see things from a different eyes, different perspective and ask to lift up all the negative feelings that you have.
Let me pray for you. Dear God, thank you for you are good, thank you that you always have us in your mind. I pray for your children who desire to get close to you, to know your will and the purpose you have for them. May you continue guide them during the time of finding their identity and purpose for your kingdom, let them not feeling discourage, feeling lost and feel alone. For You are always with us and never forsaken us. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

God bless you. Keep clam, stay faith and work for Jesus!

A God that never condemns will turn ashes into beauty, turn your negative past into positive future.

To those who feel low say, "Chin up! Be brave!' and for God will save. 
Job 22:29

God orchestral everything. Whatever you have gone through and are going through have a purpose. God allows those situations happened for the plan he has for you and for his people.

The scars and wounds that you carry are not because of you. The scars and wounds that God had healed are not only for you, the scars and wounds that you carry are meant for you to use them to heal the heart of many others. Don't hide the scars, but instead embrace it and share what God had done in your life. Share how he saved you from the broken places and healed your broken heart. Your scars and wounds are a blessing to others, it helps to heal and comfort others. Be the light to those who are discouraged. Let them know that they are not alone, let them know that they are not left alone by their God. Instead God is watching closely on how they fight through the low places.

God said enemy come to kill, destroy and steal. Remember Joseph, a slave who became ruler of Egypt said in Genesis 50:20, "you [the challenges, difficulties] intended to harm me! but god intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people."

Whatever pain you are going through because of the wrong decision you've made leading you to feel bad and shame. Remember no condemnation, no guilt and shame are from God. Those are not the character of God, when you are having and facing condemnation, remember those are from human and not from God, even they are using God's word against you. Remember only God can judge you and only his opinions matter. I know our heavenly father well, He is a loving and a caring God. He understands that we will make mistakes, but he is very patience with us, he never condemns and the only thing he asks is that we to SPEND TIME with him, so he could open our eyes and teach us, he only wants YOUR TIME so you could learn from him when you make mistakes.

I feel God is desperately want his people to know this:
"DON'T THINK YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH, DON'T THINK YOU ARE NOT WROTHY ENOUGH, NO CONDEMNATION ARE FROM ME, I LOVE YOU, AND I CARE ABOUT YOU, WHEN YOU MAKE MISTAKES, YOU WILL LEARN FROM ME, COME TO ME AND I WILL OPEN YOUR EYES AND YOU WILL LEARN FROM ME, JUST ASK ME WHEN YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND, ASK ME TO OPEN YOUR EYES AND YOU WILL LEARN FROM ME WHEN YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND.BUT DON'T FEEL GULITY AND DON'T FEEL SHAME ABOUT IT. NO CONDEMNATION ARE FROM ME, BECAUSE I DON'T DO THOSE THINGS. I LOVE YOU, I JUST LOVE YOU, YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE MY SON & DAUGHTER"

NO GUILT, SHAME AND CONDEMNATION ARE FROM GOD, THOSE ARE FROM ENEMIES AND HUMAN. THOSE ARE NOT CHARACTERS OF GOD, DO NOT LET OTHERS TO DECEIVE YOU ABOUT GOD'S CHARACTER. DO NOT LET OTHER THINGS AND WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY TAKE AWAY GOD'S LOVE AWAY. 

Romans 8:1 "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus".
May the truth had set you free, pray that you will free from all negative feelings that caused by the past mistakes, in Jesus name, AMEN! God bless you all! Enjoy the rest of the summer.

God can handle your life, HE is on your side no matter what

8-17-2013
I came back to New York from a six months trip to Hong Kong for my grandpa funeral and family time. After I got back, I was jobless, homeless (Thank God my friends welcome me into their home), money-less and a recently divorced woman. At that time, I was still unsure if the school that I had applied after I declined NYU offer would accept me into their program or not. At that period time, life was fill with uncertainty and many challenges. I hustled everyday to strive and survive. I was working at a restaurant meanwhile finding jobs, finding new home, saving money,  settling down, building a new life, and preparing for school that had finally confirm with acceptance of the program. I was exhausted almost everyday. In the middle of striving and surviving, I was diagnosed again with depression, anxiety and fear. I never take any medicine in regards to treat the symptoms. I just put my trust in God and really believing in him that by his power I will have a better life.
At that period of time, life was full with questions, worries, and sorrow, yet, this wasn't the first difficult moment or crisis in my life. I thank God for all the difficulties that I been through at an young age. I had a pretty tough teenage years, so my past miseries had made me pretty strong and capable to handle what I was going through at that time (I will share my past, so you can see how God turn ashes into beauty, turn the negative into positive. I hope it will encourages and bring hope into your life situation.)

By the grace of God, I found a new life, new apartment, new church, new school, get to experience many new things, and meet many great and inspiring people. Declined NYU offer and attend NYACK Christian college is one of the best decisions I made in my life.

8-17-2014
By the grace and mercy of God, He gave me a gorgeous midtown apartment to live in that is affordable to my low budget. I have the privilege to be used by God to do a full-time ministry for him. God gave me a business to steward called Soul Home, God granted my desire and enable me to be a dance instructor for a Spiritual and therapy - integrated dance program called 'Soul Dance', God gave me wisdom and knowledge to write for him, God gave me perseverance and persistence to continue to pursuit my Master degree in Mental Health Counseling so to equip me to heal and comfort wounded souls.

Nothing was wasted. Everything that I went through is for God's plan and purpose. Not one bit of tear, sweat and pain that you went through is lost , it will not go unseen, unheard and unfelt by our heaven father, HE collects each one of your tear, Don't get frustrated, life might seems hard right now, but he is sharpening you into a position of his plan and purpose (read my post about "see thing from heavenly perspective.) AND FROM NOW ON, JESUS WILL WIPE YOUR TEARS AWAY. HE WILL WIPE YOUR TEARS AWAY.
As I always tell my students is what I tell you is always the walk that I've walked, I openly share my wounds and scars, all my weaknesses and mistakes is so you could learn from my mistakes. My scares and wounds are use to tell you so you could have a smoother path and not the rough path that I had walked.

After I know the living God, I don't mind to share my pain and my past. Because it is by those, you can see the magnificent works that God had done in my life. All credit, praise and glory go to God. I done nothing, HE did everything for me to transforms my life and personality. HE is powerful, but yet gentle.  A God that greater that universe came down to lift me up when life had beaten me down.
You cannot get to know the fullness of Jesus until you willing to give over everything included your heart and mind to Jesus. He is the maker of miracles. If he can make miracles in my life, he will do the same for your life.

Dear Jesus, indeed you are the greatest gift that I ever have. Thank you for transformed me into a whole new person. Without you I am nothing and without you I can't do anything. You gave me wisdom to replaced my foolishness, you gave me joy to conquered bitterness, you gave me peace to calmed my anxious racing thoughts. I pray that me and other follower of you continue to empower by you to do your work for your people, give me an unshakeable faith to always trust and put hope in you. Pray that in everything I do, everything I say and everything I got is to use to bring you praise and glory, help me to commit to your work till the end of my life. In Jesus name, AMEN!

Psalm 56:8 "You keep track of all my misery, and pain. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book."

Revelation 21:4 "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

Psalm 126:5 "Those who sow in tears shall reap with shouts of joy!"

Are you in the ONE BODY OF CHRIST? Why you have time to judge and gossip? Use your time productively and effectively.

I am not condemning, I just want to ask a question 'why you have time to judge and gossips about your brothers and sisters and Christ?' Have you care for the sick yet? Have you care for the poor yet? Have you care for broken heart and the weary soul yet? Then explain to me why you have time to judge, gossip and not spending time to reach those that need Jesus in their lives? Jesus calls you to shed his light in everywhere you go, your home, your school, your community, your generation. So explain why you have time to judge and gossip? Why turning the valuable time that God had gave you to steward into something so invaluable that does not produce fruits, does not bring salvation, does not bring healing and comfort to others.  It takes more than discipline to be a good steward. How you utilize what God had given you is crucial.

It is easy to judge other's flaw but difficult to face our own flaws. Instead of avoiding, denying, MAN UP and face your own flaws, this is how you grow. The weak one crucify others, the strong one crucify themselves.  Be a 'child of God' and don't just carry the title of it. Sanctification is a life long process,  everyone is a work in progress. We are all at equal level,  no one is better than any other.When you do feel you are better than others, it is your self- arrogance and self- pride taking place at your heart. Make sure your definition of 'holiness' is align with God's definition.FYI: the truth is no one is Holy on earth, beside Jesus.

Taking upon the cross is already not easy. Instead of judging others, honoring those who sacrifice everything to respond the call of Christ, honor those who deny everyone and even themselves to walk God's will, honor those who make daily decisions based on God's words. When individualism break off, we will come collectively as ONE BODY OF CHRIST. We will collectively working together to build and advance the kingdom of God on earth, when we all focus our eyes of Jesus (and not each others mistakes), following him, fighting for the same cause, it leaves no room for judgement and gossip, but to grab the follower of Jesus, grab the apostles hand by hand, shoulder by shoulder to move forward, to help each other fight a good fight of faith, and help each other continue to commit their lives to Jesus Christ, to pray and to lift when others fall. I pray unity will come, when it does we will all see what the power of ONE BODY OF CHRIST can do to our community and our world.

*I am not judging and not condemning anyone.  I love you all, and not because I am kind or a good person. It's because I know how much your heavenly father love you! So I treasure what he treasure, YOU!!!
* I am not saying I am perfect nor Holy. I judge too, ( hey, don't judge me on that! But I'm willing to learn to be more like Christ everyday. Let us all invite Jesus Christ to come into our heart to change us. I pray love instead of hate among us, I pray peace instead of fight among us. God bless you all!)

Romans 2:1 "You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things."

1 Corinthians 12:27 Now you are the BODY OF CHRIST, and EACH ONE OF YOU is A PART OF IT.

1 Corinthians 12:12 "The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts: and though all its parts are many, THEY FORM ONE BODY. so it is WITH CHRIST 

See things from heavenly perspective (God's perspective) and not human perspective

If you see things from Human perspective, you will only see obstacles, struggles, impossible, difficulties, and limitation. And then you will have feeling of fear, bitterness, frustration, anger and your anxiety grew.
When going through difficult time, challenges, unexpected life circumstances (trails, tribulations) you need to pray and praise God for the opportunity that he is giving you for your growth. An opportunity that making you stronger and wiser. To not handle things from old way buy God's way when challenge come.

Remember that nothing is working against you, but everything is working for you. It is preparing you for the assignment that is ahead of you; the work that God has appointed you to do before you were born. 
Let go the human mind and to exchange the Christ's mind. Look up to God and connect with God, The more time you spend with him; the better you learn his will. Then you will begin to look down from the place of where you were looking up to and being to see things from heavenly perspective. 
When you spend more time with God and connecting with God; before you realize it, your thought is no longer your thought, but thought that are given from heaven. Your thinking are no longer your thinking but Christ's thinking, the words that coming through your mouth are not your words, but the words of God. Start connect today and start see things from your heavenly Father's perspective,    

I have made a mistake in the past, I had put others things before God. When I was not closely connected with God, enemy slip in and use this as opportunity to shake my faith. I started seeing the challenges that I was facing was a torture that sent from God. Things didn't turn well because God gave false promises ti me. My head went wile and think of any stupid thoughts I can about God. Enemy went further to attack me by using people close to me to question my faith which deepened my anger and doubts toward God's plan for me. Thankfully God lifted me up again and destroyed enemy plan that trying to fill my mind with doubts, and negative thoughts toward my circumstances. 
Lesson I learned from this experience is do not let God ask you the same questions for three times like he did with Peter and me. Because when he did so with you, it means you were in deep trouble Spiritually, because all the negative feeling and thoughts never would had taken place if we were closely connected with our God.  

I like one of my favorite pastor Paula White quote "go lose your mind and exchange Christ's mind." Once you have Christ mind, no matter how big the situation that you are going through, you will know that it is just another process that need to get through and break through for the next stage. It is the tough project to handle before God's promotion. It is just leading you one step closer to your destiny that God has designed for you. Start to look up to Christ and connect with him as Jesus Christ is your cornerstone.  

Emergency tips: when in trouble spiritually, do three things that King David did in Psalms 42: 5-6 "Why are you downcast, oh my soul? Why so disturbed within me? 1) PUT YOUR HOPE IN GOD, 2) for I WILL PRAISE HIM, 
my savior and my God. My soul is downcast within me, therefore 3) I WILL REMEMBER YOU.... (recall every goodness that he had done in your life)
Proverbs 29:18 'When people do not accept (or neglect) divine guidance, they run wild....' (not physically, but mentally and emotionally, all negative feeling and thoughts are running wild within you)

Isaiah 55: 8-9 “I don’t think the way you think. The way you work isn’t the way I work." Said the Lord. "For just as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts."